What happened between us that night it always seems to trouble meNow all of a sudden these people asking questionsAnd you making it seem that it happened that way because of meBut I was curious and I’ll never forget it babyWhat an experience!You coulda been the one but it wasnt that seriousTheir was smoke in the air before that was me clearing itThat felt good, all and all I learned a lesson from it thoughYou never see it coming you just get to see it goYeah I shoulda looked up in the sky at firstNow I can see it in his eyesFireworks!

What happened between us that night it always seems to trouble me
Now all of a sudden these people asking questions
And you making it seem that it happened that way because of me
But I was curious and I’ll never forget it baby
What an experience!
You coulda been the one but it wasnt that serious
Their was smoke in the air before that was me clearing it
That felt good, all and all I learned a lesson from it though
You never see it coming you just get to see it go
Yeah I shoulda looked up in the sky at first
Now I can see it in his eyes
Fireworks!

Whats wrong with me?

Its way past 9 30

And i have a shit load of hw.

Tagg 3 PAGE ESSAY,

Science lab due,

Spanish hw packet,

Math hw packet,

Science worksheet,

Wong outline

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Yet i dont care and im still listening to music.

WHATS WRONG WITH ME?

should i fake an illness tomorrow? Maybe if i stay upp all night and ill be too tired to function and mom will let me stay home. i just cant go to school, this is too much

I wish this night never happened. IT RUINED EVERYTHING. I broke Mando’s little heart this night. All for fucking Phillip. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!???????!?!?!? Did I not have a soul? I was so self centered. I hate this. I don’t deserve Mando, and I know that deep down. But I want him so much. He made me happy. It is horrible I used him. I want to apologize. But I dont know how… we never talk anymore. View high resolution

I wish this night never happened. IT RUINED EVERYTHING.

I broke Mando’s little heart this night.

All for fucking Phillip.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!???????!?!?!?

Did I not have a soul? I was so self centered. I hate this.

I don’t deserve Mando, and I know that deep down.

But I want him so much. He made me happy.

It is horrible I used him. I want to apologize. But I dont know how…

we never talk anymore.

This boy inspires me. Marco, you are so sweet and give great advice. Being with you makes me feel better. I hope you really do like me (as a friend) because I love you as a brother. I wish we were more close and I wish I saw you more often.  I miss you too much. View high resolution

This boy inspires me. Marco, you are so sweet and give great advice. Being with you makes me feel better. I hope you really do like me (as a friend) because I love you as a brother.

I wish we were more close and I wish I saw you more often. 

I miss you too much.

Mia is so pretty. I’ll never forget when I showed Phillip a picture of her and he told me, “Desi, why can’t you look like that? I will PAY you to look like her, please.” That broke my heart. I honestly don’t understand why i always liked him, why i left Mando for him. He is not worth it, he isn’t even cute or buff. He’s a jerk too. He used me.  Why do I like him? I know why, hes always my back up plan. Just knowing I can have him is comforting. But whatever I’m done with him forever. View high resolution

Mia is so pretty.

I’ll never forget when I showed Phillip a picture of her and he told me, “Desi, why can’t you look like that? I will PAY you to look like her, please.”

That broke my heart.

I honestly don’t understand why i always liked him, why i left Mando for him. He is not worth it, he isn’t even cute or buff. He’s a jerk too.

He used me. 

Why do I like him?

I know why, hes always my back up plan. Just knowing I can have him is comforting. But whatever I’m done with him forever.

I hope we can go to the fair together again. It would give me an amazing summer. View high resolution

I hope we can go to the fair together again.

It would give me an amazing summer.

I look so different. View high resolution

I look so different.

Do you understand how badly I want you? I’m sorry I mistreated you….

I’m sorry I lead you on.

But its easy to see that we’ve both matured.

I think thats all we needed, just some time away.

Its been enough time,

please can we try us again?

Just one last time. Third times the charm.

Please….please…

Two more weeks, thats it just two more. 14 days. And youll be gone forever

I wont have to worry about seeing you and having my heart drop ever again.

I guess this year was great in a way. Only during Janurary when I had you. 

Now your gone. And you dont give any fucks about me.

I’ve learned to accept that I can’t win you back.

I guess I’ll just go back to how I used to be.

But I can’t. Everything is different.

I have no friends now. Because of you basically.

And…because I don’t even want to try. Whats the use?

I don’t care. 

I want high school to end now. I’m done.